Matthew 28:19-20
19 "Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and the Son and the Holy Spirit,
20 teaching them to observe all that I commanded you; and lo, I am with you always, even to the end of the age."
i had to share what happened to me this week at my job with UPS. It is no secret that i battle depression and when it creeps in, i feel like curling up in the fetal position and dying. The pain i have experienced while working 70 hours at two jobs and only sleeping 4-5 hours a day has been enough to take me out and i have a high tolerance for pain. Okay, enough about me because my lovely wife says that i write too long and it is too much of a theological treatise for our intended audience.
Long story short, Christ manifested to me the verse above (20) the other day as i was loading package cars. i was depressed and feeling like i wanted to quit the world when i see a white sticker stuck to the belt that moves our packages down to us for loading. On the sticker was handwritten, "Jesus Luv U". i know not of any believers on the side of the belt i was working on and only those workers and myself have access to the belt and could have placed that sticker there. It was perfectly placed where you could read it like you were going to grab a package off of the belt.
Freaked me out! It was one of those where you think about it for a why and the weight of it crushes you. "Lo I (the I AM) is with you always, even to the end of the age." Yes, LORD this true; you made that apparent clear to me the other day and saved me from the depths of my depression and sinfulness that causes it. May His name ever be praised and bring on the Sabbath Rest.
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I didn't know you battled depression, are you on medication? Mickie never said anything. How can you be depressed with 4 beautiful children, a loving, college educated wife that is going through this with you too. Look at the blessings, you have a job, you have a place to live, you are healthy, your children are healthy! The way I see it, Your cup runneth over!!
No medication. And while i am blessed with much, the reality of the pain of depression is no less real to me. Even the most blessed of men, i might venture to say most, have had or do have their fair shair of issues to include most of the heroes of the Bible. Sin has wrecked this world and our lives and to deny this fact or the results of it is to make light of the great salvation given by Yeshua for this sin. While i may suffer from time to time with depression i am not destroyed because Christ lives in me and i do not live on my own power, but by His. And one day, i will never suffer from it again because i will be made whole and God will dwell among us and we will walk with God in intimate relationship.
whew!
Depression - it's a complicated thing.... some brought on by a chemical inbalance..... some brought on by our own worries.... some brought on by a loss.... If it's a chemical inbalance medications will help. If it's by a loss - time will heal. If it's brought on by the worries of life - then do better planning. When Bobby decided to get his PHD - we saved, planned and budgeted. When the time was right we did it without any help from anyone. Do keep in mind I was pg w/Cody. Maybe if you would have planned a little better you wouldn't be working 70 hrs. a day. I know you are tired - but Mickie must be exhausted - 4 kids, teaching, you gone most of the time. When you get down and out, do something for someone else - do volunteer work - do things for Mickie, your kids. Stop drinking star bucks and make your own coffee, take your lunch, get jobs close to home. And...why are you using Yeshua instead of God, or Jesus? Just a thought...be happy in all you do and bless God THROUGH your actions, not your words!
The point of this post was not to highlight my depression. It was to highlight the nearness of Yeshua (Jesus) and His making good on His promise to be with us till the end of the age.
Jason, you goose, you're the one who brought up depression! Silly, if you hadn't brought it up, no one would have even commented probably. We love your family, they're ALL going through this. It's not a "Jason" thing, it's a whole family thing! How would you respond if it was Abigail telling you she was depressed? You'd point out all the positive things in her life! I am too! You are so, so truly blessed! The Presbyterian and the Baptist in me calls HIM, Jesus.
I'm confused. Yeshua is a name many Hebrew Christians use in place of Jesus. I thought you were at a Baptist seminary?? Still what a wonderful way for Jesus to make his presence known to you. Maybe you do have believers that work with you! Your lucky you get to sleep in your own bed at night. I think Matt would kill to get 4-5 hours in his own bed instead of a sardine can :)
it is a very nice, comforting feeling to know of and feel God's presence. although, also kind of scary. it's like, hmm... did he just see me do that? oh man. i'm in BIG trouble.
oh, also.. Mick... love the blog set up. I see you got that under control. nicole also said pyzam.com has some cool free ones. I didn't know about that website... that's all her. so if it crashes your computer, it's all her.
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