Heavy thoughts needing rest

It has been a long work week for me. Six days in a row and i finally got a couple of days off. The kids got back from their gram and pops and they were asleep when i got home tonight. i had to go into their rooms and look at them. i missed them even though they were only gone for a few days. Baby chloe stayed with us and she gobbled up the love of both her parents. The three of us went to Red Robin last night for dinner and the nice waitress told us that one day we would get really good at eating with one hand. She said this because mickie was holding chloe as she ate her dinner. we bothed laughed knowing that we had learned that lesson six years ago with Abigail.

It is strange to think that we have been parents for six years now and i wonder where the time went. It is as if time doubled or even tripled in speed once we had children. Years go by like days and yet i can recall less about the past than i would like to. i was listening to a derek webb cd, "The Ringing Bell" today on my way home and was hit full force by a fact that our lives if not lived for the right reasons are a waste.

He sings: "They say we are just trying to stay alive, but it looks more like a way to die." i wonder how much our lives look like this? i started to think that just "existing" is really just a miserable way to die while living. No chance of going in reverse during this life. Yesterday is gone, today is here, and tomorrow has enough trouble on its own. This world is full of people finding different ways to die. They die with toys, houses, money, fame, acceptance, being right, feelings, and a whole host of facades.

May we never settle for "existence", but push onward into the upward calling of Christ. Tomorrow do not just exist, but live. And life is only found in Yeshua because He came to give us life and life abundant. Not existence, but life!

The worse thing would be to get to the end of your life and find out you missed it; you missed the point of God forming you in your mother's womb, counting the hairs on your hand, and breathing His breath in you so that you could glorify Him through a relationship with Him. Life is only found in God and anything else is just another way to die.

Shalom!